Just a little html coding i did. lol. bored to death. did nothing for this one week break from college. might pop by atmosphere tonite to catch a 'ministry of sound' resident dj perform.

u guys should try this online music streaming site. www.di.fm wicked dance music channel. my favourite would be the progressive channel.

Was driving on my way home when i heard the Baz Luhrmann song. Reminds me of my good old days. this song has soo much memory enached on it.

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 1999...

Wear Sunscreen

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas
the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience
I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand
the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years
you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you cant grasp now how
much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You're not as fat as you imagine.

Dont worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying
is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your
worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you.

Sing.

Dont be reckless with other people's hearts, dont put up with people who
are reckless with yours.

Floss

Dont waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind
the race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing
this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Dont feel guilty if you dont know what you want to do with your life
the most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do with
their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds know still dont.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you wont, maybe you'll have children,
maybe you wont, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken
on your 75th wedding anniversary.
What ever you do, dont congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either
your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can dont be afraid of it, or what other people think of it,
it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own..

Dance

even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you dont follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and
the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get,
the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard;
live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander,
you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were
young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their
elders.

Respect your elders.

Dont expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Dont mess too much with your hair, or by the time it's 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past
from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling
it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen...


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Quindon Tarver
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Everybody's free, everybody's free, everybody's free
Everybody's free, everybody's free, to feel good, to feel good

Brother and sister together will make it through oh, huh yeah
Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting ,but i've been waiting to be there for you
And I'll be there, just helping you out whenever I can

Everybody's free ohh yea yeah
Oh Every ho yeah
Oh to feel good
Ohh to feel good*
(** chorus :
Everybody's free, everybody's free
Everybody's free, everybody's free, everybody's free, to feel good)

ok, the ending sounds crappy, but the melody makes up for it in numbers. 

 I feel crappishly stupid. how irrational of me to just shut someone i've known, com pletely out of my life. the reason was obvious to the point of me unable to accept it. however, time has parted its knowledge to me and i see a bigger picture now. even though i act like i dont care anymore, the truth is, i still do. maybe ive given up on the matters of the heart. but ive certainly not given up on the glue that stuck the little bits of pieces together. i'll be a watchful eye, from afar. guiding the others. rest assure, u wont be alone on this. i never have nor never will abandon my promise. 

 By far, the 'Da Vinci Code' by Dan Brown, must be the best sci-fi novel i've ever read. dan brown clearly has done alot! of research. its gotta be the most controversial&n bsp;novel written, religously.

   It's about the believe of a sacred royal bloodline of none other than Jesus Christ himself. it's widely believed that jesus does have a bloodline that has survived till this age of time. the merogivian kings are one of the many royal bloodline rumoured to be from the christ himself. quest for the 'Holy Grail', some believe, it was a 'chalice', a cup jesus drank from on his last dinner. however there is proof that the 'holy grail' has and is a totally different meaning altogether.

 The grail, the chalice, was actually a symbol of the sacred feminine. representing the power of the female, the ability to produce life. therefore, the grail represented woman. 

 A painting, 'the last supper' by Da Vinci, clearly shows jesus having his last meal before his arrest. u can see 12 people gathered around him. 6 on his right, and 6 on his left. however, the person seated on the right hand of jesus, has a striking resemblance of that of a woman. the person seated on the right, happens to be Mary Magdalene of the Bible. however, the Bible did not mentioned that Mary Magdalene, was actually the wife of jesus. She was the chalice that bore the royal bloodline of jesus christ. and the search for the holy grail, actually is the search for the documents of proof.

 A 'treasure of knowledge' well hidden by a secret society named, the 'Priory of Sion'. A real organization with Sir Isaac Newton, Leonardo Da Vinci, Sandro Botticelli and Victor Hugo among It's members. They hid it from the world, to protect the contents and secrets of jesus leading a normal life.

 Now, imagine that all, in a story twisted with drama. simply the best. the novel also has other interesting facts on life. It's a good novel. 

 Yea, it's the 31st of December already. how time flies by so fast. Its been an eventful year. recieved my drivers licence, school activities with leo club, learning the guitar, the preparation and sitting the SPM examination and  ;all my usual mischief (drivers licence just helping the cause :P) all rolled into one big year.

 Went to Taylors College to enrol myself into SAM today. Today was the last day of enrolment. Really left it to last minute, like always -.-. I guess i wanted to take my time and make sure which study route wou ld be the most appropriate for me. The school term starts on Tuesday next week for me.

 A major underwater earthquak e struck this part of the world last sunday cozing major tsunamis to hit other parts of the world. Tsunamis are dangerous not becoz of its strong and tall waves it produces that wipes out& nbsp;buildings and homes but for its underwater current it generates. Once u get sucked into one of those, it'll be very hard to get out. It will drag u all the way towards the ocean. thus drowning u. 

My deepest condolences goes out to all those who've been struck with this tragedy. It couldnt have been any worst. Im grateful none of my friends and family members suffered any loss. That morning i woked up to the vibrations of my room windows pr oduced by the aftershocks. pales in comparison to those waking up with debris and dead relatives. 

I'll be heading down to Menara Star to make donations. Anyone else interested in joining me, lemme noe. here is the address : 

 Menara Star (Petaling Jaya)
15, Jalan 16/11,
Section 16,
46350 Petaling Jaya,
Selangor Darul Ehsan
Tel: 03-7967 1388 
    

Wasnt really done with the previous blog. wasnt in the mood for blogging.

Where was i? ah driving!

yea, i get this wicked feeling whenever im behind the wheels. It's not a fun feeling. but it's enjoyful. Especially when ure going at 120 km/h. It's the feeling of threading on the line of life and death that gets u all tingled. but dont worry, i dont do that all to often.  :). its not my car. and i think 'they'll' be cursing me if i wreaked it.

I've had my fair share of Newbie driver mistakes. like reversing into standing still motorbikes and knocking it over. :P. or clipping the bumper of a parked car thus setting off the ultra sensitive alarms on the merc whilst trying my freaking best to manuvoer into a parking lot w/o power sterring in my car. >.<!. Ive had pissed off drivers honking acting like road bullies -.-. u nobs, kiss my car plz. That goes out to all those tail-gaters too.

the Funniest incident would have been me cutting into my dad's lane not realising it was him till i checked the rear-view mirror to see who was honking at me. Man i got that shit when i reached home with him right behind me all the way. lol.

I've had 1 really serious accident. so far. lol. It was drizziling and that made the road surface extra slippery. Theres this sharp cornering near my house but u wont break till the last second coz its hard to see and ure travelling fast down hill. I was going extra fast that nite. I  usually take cornerings in free gear (learnt that doing so is dangerous, the hard way) the car drifted abit and i felt my backside lose grip. so i counter-steered. but that made matters worst and before long i was going at 80km/h heading into the road curbs. BAM! the car was a total wreak. but i escaped with nothing more than a shock. (not even a cut or bruise). Wat followed next was even scarier if u asked me. explaining wad happened to the parents. some scary shit. mum, ure the greatest for understanding the situation and not making it worst by yelling or questioning me. that was very mature.

Why was i driving so fast? I guess i was just trying to express myself in driving fast and furious. Parental pressure, Examination stress, Relationship strains, growing pains, all the turbulent emotions mixxed together in one big melting pot. Makes the perfect recipe for self-destruction if u asked me.

All these expriences have made me all the more wiser. my friends and family laugh and joke whenever i tell them about my mishaps. its all good. =). but ull never understand until u get behind those wheels.

   Took a taxi from my house, in PJ to Subang today. That was the first time i took a public transport to my destination since i recieved my drivers licence. It felt weird, like i was lost in something that was so familiar to me. Before my licence to drive,taking the bus or hailing a cab or even taking the LRT was the only means of me reaching my destination.  

*takes a long deep breathe* before shouting *SPM IS OVER!* for who noes how many times ive said that. Thanks mum, for reminding me about taylors college open day today....and that i should attend...

Well yea, im looking very forward and optimistic to college life, and uni too. But for now, lets enjoy and savour the thought that im finally able to say been there, done that for spm. Ive finally crossed the line. yea, its a sad thought, dont u reckon?

WOW, 4 months already since ive started this web blog. hmm, time for a recap. There have been a lil short of 1500 visits to my blog, according to my account info, tblog owners should noe this thing. (stuff the cool counter, coz its stuffed up), 10 blogs, including this one. wtf??, 10 blogs only??!^&!#. Quite a few pictures. Which I so stupidly pos ted the original file size so it takes like ages to get them to load. my bad, my bad. To the 1500 odd ppl who've visited my site, im killing ure band-width. =). I kinda like my layout and design. especially the colours. spent countless hours finding the right combo. NOTE: the header and background of the mid part are custom made, taken and edited pictures i took with my camera. The clouds of cameron highlands, and the tiles of my bathroom. LOL. 

    What a week this has been. I nearly missed my maths paper on monday. woked up from my slumber sleep 10 minutes into the exam. Was panicking like mad. I called my school up and asked what should i do. My school, a 20 minute drive from home was too far for me to drive to make it in time. theres a 30 minute time delay for late-comers to still sit for the paper. So i did the next best possible thing, that was to check myself into the nearest school, which happened to be my former school. That was pretty embarassing, my old pals still study there and u can imagine the amused look on their face when they saw me at their school... but i guess thats the worst i could have got, imagine repeating a paper in july, next year. -.-was sooo relieved, phew.

 Tuesday nite, got a bad news phone call. My grandparents have been hospitalised. Some fucking robbers broke into their house and beat them savagely before running off with nothing -.-. Those coward cunts, pick on someone your own size, unless ofcourse ure in to robbing the elderly people. Both my grand parents recieved stitches. grand-mum lost quite alot of blood. but didnt require any blood transfusion. grand-dad, well, the incident actually made him walk better, he got his knee treated at the same time. hehe.

  Im having MORAL paper today in the afternoon. Think, i would help a blind man cross the road. I would hand over the 50 dollar note i found to the police. I would keep my neighbourhood clean. err... MORAL.

Another 2 more papers next week till the end. Im really literally running the last leg of this home run stretch. Hang in there!

Just finished my first paper of the dreaded SPM examinations. Had Information Technology this morning. 

There was abit of a "hiccup", my paper actually started an hour later than the actual time. The invigilators opened up the first section of my 3 papers and found out that they were short of 2 papers. So they held all of us in the computer lab whilst they sorted it out.

That set the mood of the exam. During that one hour, I managed to break-ice with the invigilators. Believe it or not, they gave me some tips on the paper. When everything was sorted out and the exams began, noone was actually taking it seriously anymore, even the invigilators. 

My programming was an ace! Im so proud! Gawd, wished i had a little more time to work on it, than it would have totally blown-them-away~ but im satisfied with the effort i spent on it. =)

oh did i mentioned that i spent 4 hours sitting on that chair staring at the screen in a room that felt like a meat-freezing compartment! i wanted to pee soo badly, but was too focused on my work to get my ass of the chair and go to the toilet. ugh, was like a water fountain :P. sip sip* lol. 

Christopher Reeves, who broke his back from a bad horse fall, died yesterday at the age of 52. RIP SUPERMAN.    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;  i wonder why you loved stem-cell development soo much? hehe.

It's so sad. My best friend, Khoo Junde went blind, maybe forever.. 

 His mum called me up a couple of days ago. It was dreadful news, my close friend, Khoo Junde suddenly went blind. It was shocking news for me and everyone else who knew him. 

This is part of the email taken from his brother.

He was unfortunate to be infected by a disease called optic neuritis.  The doctors do not know the cause yet but it is most likely to a nerve breakdown. This means that he just woke up blind one day. It was totally unplanned nor were there any precautions that could be taken. this is a disease that cant be avoided once happened. It may have been his
luck or sins but no matter what, he's lying there on the bed with 0/20 vision on the right eye. he cant see anything at all even light. his recovery rate is totally dependent on his body's immune system as well as his will. there arent any treatment for this disease now because of the rarity of the disease. so the doctors are giving him loads and loads of steroids hoping to speed up recovery.

ps>you will not lose a friend but may keep a friend
that lost his vision]

 I still remember the first time i met this great lad. He and me were in the same class in year 6. about 12 years old, he was 11. Strangely, the first time we actually had a chat, was when he provoked me. From day one of school, we were constantly having a go at each other. It was so bad, our class teacher had to separate and place me from one point and him the furthest point of the class. How we settled our differences? Well it was at an extra class that both of us had to attend, grades were slipping (-.-). We both talked NORMALLY for once. Infact i kinda enjoyed having him for company through those 2 hour long classes. We fooled around alot. Sigh, those were the days.

 2 years ago, he and his family migrated to Australia. Infact, i encouraged them to go. They came to me for abit of know-how of down under and in 2001 they left for a holiday at gold-coast. They came back from the trip very pleased and excited. I was happy to see him go to stay a few months later. 

 My friend, You've been a great sport. And i Know u will recover from this. Theres always hope, so hang in there. I pray for a speedy recovery.  
 

Yearp! Dont know why i am blogging right now when i still have  a whole week of examinations to go. Im in deep trouble. Im having chemisty papers tommorow. I hope i dont screw up too badly. I guess the thought of not blogging for more than a week is screwing me over more than that of my exams. Speaking of which, i've gone through 5 papers from last week right up to as i type. Wasnt as hard as i expected them to be OR WAS TOLD TO EXPECT. I was told that they were sending me to hell and they wont be expecting my arse back anytime soon. Damn teachers! I noe i've been giving y'all a horrid time not handing up assignments on time, heck, not even bothering to hand them up and acting the fool in an otherwise mundane class but cut me some slack will ya!

well, off to hit the books....ahh, nothing beats the fresh fragrance of an untouched, nice, neat, new, exercise book which happened to be on my shelf since the beginning of last year.    & nbsp; 

its nice to be blogging on a regular basis again. tata, ill be back a week from now.

Imagine this....You wake up early in the morning to greet your parents before they go to work and you, go to school. However, little do you know that one of them won't be returning....forever.

Last night, I was on tblog, checking out other tbloggers blogs when by chance, i stumbled upon a fellow compatriots blog-page. Upon reading further, i found out that the tblogger was actually the so n of a recent  local helicopter crash victim. (more information visit http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp?user=jemmtt" title="http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp?user=jemmtt" target="_blank"http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp...)  I felt sorrow and sadness as i read more and more of his blog. 

This wasnt right! how could this tragedy have happened!.....again!

From my point of view, it was a situation that should and could have been prevented considering these facts:-

• that a helicopter of the exact same model and age crashed two months earlier.


• killing 6 people, including ministers and VIP's  


• following a similar route and location


• from the same helicopter operating company

 Now, how in the world two months later, a repeat of such a traumatic accident happened again??? Why only after a second similar crash, the DCA or the aviation department decides to take actions more swiftly? Who's to claim responsibilities to the life-lost and those that suffer from this? Alot has been said, but little has been done.  And nothing will bring back the loved ones that all have lost.

 The chats  ;Ive had with him has been eye-opening ones. It just makes you not take your parents forgranted (I gave my dad a six-year-wait hug before i went to sleep last night) . It's brought me closer to accepting the fact that I'm a Malaysian. One which is really hard for me(i'll explain in another blog sometime.). And so, I dedicate this blog to that fellow tblogger. May you, your family and friends have a full recovery from this ordeal.    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   

In the school's computer lab right now. Teachers going through the IT trials paper,  section c part, also known as the dooms-day programming section. They give you this section a week in advance for you to prepare before the actual exams. My finals (in 2 months time), they give you this section a month in advance! wtf happened to enjoyment and happiness! Im only in secondary school goddammit!

Life is full of ups and downs. Theres time to play and enjoy yourselves and theres a time where you've gotta take yourself seriously. Sometimes you have to sit down and think about what do&n bsp;you want in life. Only you and yourself determines what you are today. Resolution: Im gonna pay attention to my teacher explain the paper  right now, I need my A's.

    & nbsp; We, as human-beings tend to react with our feelings first and think about the consequence of the action later. Its an instinct, pre-programmed into us to increase our survival rate. Its a survival skill picked up from our pre-historical ancestors who were constantly threatened by bigger, stronger, more powerful creatures. If only we can make decisions without having emotions and feelings binded to it, but we cant. Thats why we have computers to make decisions for us... :wink:   & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;        

The Sith Lord has found the perfect replacement for the vacant Darth post.   :twisted:

Thats, Me after taking a nice warm shower. showering is an important daily routine for me. It keeps my body fresh and clean from all those microscopic germs that cling to my body after an activity laden day. But most importantly, showeri ng allows me to think of how ive spent the day. how the day had gone for me. Its a time where I let all those emotions,that ive been holding back maybe for the whole day, just pour out like the water that flows out of the shower-head. Sometimes during these thoughtful thinking times of mine, ill switch on the radio and have some music blasting away whilst i bathe and let my mind drift to the unknown or rather the nolstalgic. The music of course suits the mood of the day. It helps to evoke the raw emotion that I so need to feel. Coz the more i feel it, the more it helps to clear my mind of it. By the time im finished, Ill step out, look at myself in the mirror, and i'll always see that blank look on my face. If i do see it, than i know that the shower had acomplished its purpose. Hence, the expression im showing in the picture shot.  The sweet serenity a shower offers. Blissful till the next time i take another one.    & nbsp;